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Name: German
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 1/25/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: CARS, CARS, & CARS!!!! I love almost all music. Country still needs alot of help. Metal and Alternative are the best. Led Zeppelin is the king of all Rock Bands. Figuring out this whole college thing.
Expertise: I do Martial Arts. Ask me and I might tell you about it. Used to play the piano...but I can still read music. Some say i shud b a teacher...not sure bout that 1.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  jdsmodena
Member Since:
8/10/2004
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| Sometimes I wish everything would disappear. I hate drama, real life drama more than anything else in this world. Unfortunately (and I fight it I swear) I can be a bit of a drama king. Son of a biscuit, I upset myself.
I'm not sure why, but something has happened over the past month or so. Nothing has been right. "Monkey killing monkey killing monkey." Friends agravating friends. Me being a wishy-washy, no good, poopoo. I hate it.
I HATE it. I have every reason to love life right now. Really, I don't understand what has been going on. I want to know. I have been blessed with everything I need, or could want.
I've gotta get out of this freakin' funk. God, where are you right now? Help us...we are running around like chickens with our heads cut off. Thank you, Lord, for not forgetting us.
and thank you too, emily.
--Joshua | Currently Watching
Pink Floyd - The Wall 25th Anniversary (Deluxe Edition)
By Bob Geldof, Christine Hargreaves, James Laurenson, Eleanor David, Kevin McKeon, Bob Hoskins, David Bingham (II), Jenny Wright, Alex McAvoy, Ellis Dale, James Hazeldine, Ray Mort, Margery Mason, Robert Bridges, Michael Ensign, Marie Passarelli, Winston Rose, Joanne Whalley, Nell Campbell, Emma Longfellow, Pink Floyd
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| What does one do when his ego takes over his rationality? Damned if I know, haha, my ego gets the best of me more than I'd care to admit. I think the best thing to do is to try and forget about yourself. Concerning one's thoughts with self will only FEED the ego. However, if you focus on the moment, on the others involved in the moment things will work out. Seriously ego virtually equals selfishness.
Selfishness is the root of all evil, no not money. The funny thing is that I know all of this. I know how to live outside of myself (shoot, guess I'm damned then). The next question is WHY? Why do I let myself control myself? What is it about myself that is so darn special? Absolutely diddlysquat. Every time I put myself first things fall to crap. But everytime I forget about precious little me things go swimmingly. WHY then do I not always leave myself behind. Well, I guess it's cause I'm human. It frustrates me to no end, knowing that I do exactly what I do not want to do. A little 'Paul' for you. I know what is best, I know how I should act and what I should but I don't always desire that. There is my selfish self that says, "No. You can't do that. Sure, it's the right thing to do, but you gotta look out for number one, kid. You really really want something other than what is best." My brain can actually function that way...scary. I don't like it.
But you know what else is really grating on me? Space. Space, what a concept. The idea that a distance of time and space separates you from something else. Random, I have a theory that explores the idea that time is non-existant and that we are all living in every moment all the time. Weird? yes, ask me about it later.
Anywho, space keeps me from being with Emily. And for that, I hate space. Christmas is the time of year when Jesus was born. God became fully man while being fully God to DIE for ME. It's a great day, I love Jesus for that and will forever be in his debt. So, it's a bad time for me to hate, I don't want to hate right now, but I do. Space sucks. I want to be with Emily. This is also the time of year to share the love that you have been given from Christ with people. It is really hard when the person you want to share it with the most is nearly 1,000 miles away. I should not be bitter. I'll be with her soon, it's only a matter of time. Or is it? Cause you know, I may be with her right now and not even know it.
Whoa, if time doesn't really exist then niether does space. You can't have one without the other (invert that statement, I'm just too lazy to do so). Well this was a bunch of rambling that is silly and is probably boring the poop right of you (if that's true I'm SOOOOO terribly sorry). I leave you with this: forget yourself, live for the best of the moment (i.e. God) and contemplate time and space. | Currently Watching
The Shining
By Jack Nicholson, Shelley Duvall, Danny Lloyd, Scatman Crothers, Barry Nelson, Philip Stone, Joe Turkel, Anne Jackson, Tony Burton, Lia Beldam, Billie Gibson, Barry Dennen, David Baxt, Manning Redwood, Lisa Burns, Louise Burns, Robin Pappas, Alison Coleridge, Burnell Tucker, Jana Sheldon
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| I like to write. Words are the most powerful tool to have ever been created. I believe it. Words convey actions, feelings, thoughts, emotions, insinuations, intuitions, points of view, moments in time, shocks, slow realizations, changes, stabilizations and everything above, below, and in and out of all that. When someone says that something is indescribable they are meerly over looking the right words. The power of language, given to us by God, is incredible. The only thing that is completely beyond explaination through language is something not experienced; something that has never been seen before, like God. I can't even think of anything off the top of my head that is indescribable. We even have an idea of what God is like, thanks to the WORDS of the Bible.
I also love bones and fossils. Bones are the frame the foundation of what we are. Collecting bones is one of my hobbies. I guess that you could say I have a fascination with dead things. I think that another reason why I love bones and fossils is that they are IMPRESSIONS of something once living. They are the last things remaining from their lives. Some people leave works of art, ideas, books, religions, memories in loved one's brains, photographs and whatever else. But everyone, leaves something behind. Bones are something that we all have in common. If an organism doesn't have bones it can leave impressions or mineral diposits behind in fossil form. We all have some sort of lasting effect on the world. Bones are just a physical remaining memento of something that can be looked and studied to learn about its past.
Words and bones are passions of mine. Very different but very impactful. I love it, them, my girlfriend, all my friends, annoying people, life in general, and God. Keep in touch, it means a lot to me. | Currently Watching
Garden State
By Alex Burns, Christopher Carley, Amy Ferguson, Jill Flint, Gary Gilbert, Kenneth Graymez, Jackie Hoffman, Ian Holm, Jayne Houdyshell, Trisha LaFache, Austin Lysy, Yvette Mercedes, Jim Parsons (II), Natalie Portman, Armando Riesco, Peter Sarsgaard, Jean Smart, Michael Weston, George C. Wolfe
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| I never update this thing anymore. No one reads it. At least I don't think anyone does, but for now, I'll ramble on (good song...long live Led). I'm in CoMo for the start of the year now. I was only home for about a week and a half. It was great seeing old friends and catchin' up, rehashing the good ol' days.
But I love my current life just as much if not more. Columbia really grew on me this summer. I've had a blast. Emily has been a great motivation to me. She's crazy, thus I too want to be more crazy than ever. Now when I say crazy, I don't mean it in a bad way at all. I've started to look at my spiritual life much more seriously. God is a much bigger part of my life than I ever realized (even bigger than I CAN realize). Being extremely athletic, Emily has made me want to get crackin' in the 'work out' department. Simply put, she's amazing and I'm glad God has brought us together.
This next semester should be a blast! Not only because of Emily. I have my own apartment (which is flippin' sweet), livin' near a bunch of friends, workin' and goin' to class. My schedule rocks. Classes should actually be interesting for the most part. I'm slightly excited about attending class, but not at all excited about the work that they will entail.
OH! I went to Colorado for the first time in years! Emily and the family came with. It was AMAZING! too many good stories from that to even begin. BONES! HIKING! 4-WHEELING! it was all good.
That pretty much sums things up for now. Hopefully someone out there is listening to my rambles (reading, rather). I wish everyone a great semester, and may God be with you all.
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| hahahahahaha................well isnt this just interesting?! gotta love it. Sorry Mavs. There is a time for living and time for dying and I, sure as Heaven and Hell, am not planning on dying anytime soon. All in the WILL. It's the only place to be. Focus, refocus and then refocus again. I'm LOST and found. Happy and sad, glad and mad. Opposite. Confusing, loving. Live it up, you'll regret it before its too late.
Put It Into Practice
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